Hello dear hearts,
I hope it’s alright by you if I give a bit of a personal update, which does hold relevance for the typical content of this blog. Recently I’ve been posting increasingly sparingly, sometimes erratically taking pieces down within the hour they go up. Or days will go by during which the most I transcribe is lecture notes, and this is so uncharacteristic that it truly unsettles me. There’s a plurality of possible reasons behind this, namely that I bit off more than I can chew taking two honors courses in one 18 hour semester, or that all-nighters and a long history of insufficient/poor health choices are taking their toll, or (most likely) that Michaela just doesn’t have a grip on things like she should.
I used to wake up at 7 so that I could write contentedly until my first class at 10, and spend said class with a blank document open for notes, that more often than not are a mélange of test information and creative writing. Lately, with a spate of final essays, work, and volunteer commitments, it’s been a matter of practicing the noble art of getting by. What I do write these days is indubitably sub-standard (there’s no implicit expectation for a contradiction; I merely know when I’m satisfied with a poem and I am so rarely satisfied these days), and often reactionary to whatever is happening in the week. Thus the pieces become too close, too personal, and (as it was recently pointed out to me by another writer) incomprehensible.
Because of this, I’m putting this site on hiatus until the end of the semester in a few weeks. There’s a maelstrom of things to take care of in the interim between now and my two weeks of summer break, which do include some very happy events: preparing to study for a year at the Université Catholique de l’Ouest in France, writing a term paper I’m enthusiastically enraptured in researching, and finishing the year alongside some of the brightest, most tender-hearted humans I know.
Thank you for reading this, and I apologize for the forthcoming absence. I hope to return to you all in May with something deserving of your readership.
With much love to all of you,